I had not heard of this but one day my coworker told me that she read about it and she thought that it was something I needed to check into. She thought it was what my issue was. She.Was.Right.
This is how Web MD describes it…
Do nails on a chalkboard make you cringe? Imagine if a sound could make you panic or fly into a rage.
This is the case with misophonia — a strong dislike or hatred of specific sounds.
Misophonia, also known as selective sound sensitivity syndrome, starts with a trigger. It’s often an oral sound — the noise someone makes when they eat, breathe, chew, yawn, or whistle. Sometimes a small repetitive motion is the cause — someone fidgets, jostles you, or wiggles their foot.
For many of us..this is daily reality. There is a difference between just being irritated by a sound and feeling the need to run away from it or go into a rage because of it. I have not been officially “diagnosed” with Misophonia but after doing much research… I definitely have it. And I am coming to find out that there are many people who suffer with this.
I find that there are many “triggers”. They can be sounds or visual triggers. I have noticed that with me, the triggers affect me more when I am tired or stressed. It is the sound of someone chewing, coughing, yawning, utensils scraping a dish while eating, smacking when eating and sometimes even breathing! Listening to Donald Trump doing his speeches and the long nasal breaths he takes…is almost too much for me!
Repeated motions also trigger me. Nail tapping, foot tapping, pin tapping, repeated motions with hands.
It is so hard to explain the effects. I can only describe it as..panic followed by rage! When it first starts it is a fast heartbeat and shortness of breath as if you are having a panic attack! Then it becomes flight or fight! The need is to just get away from it. But then when you can’t escape it….it becomes RAGE!!! This is all happening on the inside and most people don’t even know that you are having an issue! But internally you are secretly plotting how you can MAKE THEM STOP!
I think many times people don’t even know they are making the eating noises or doing the repetitive motions and they certainly aren’t trying to irritate you! But if you are the one suffering with Misophonia you feel like they are doing it on purpose! How can they possibly make that much noise eating and NOT KNOW?!?? I often wonder if smacking and chewing with your mouth open makes the food taste better. I will never know because I just can’t eat that way!
Many people find that they need to wear noise filtering headphones so that they don’t hear the trigger noises. I have not gone that far yet but I do find myself covering my ears sometimes to try to avoid the noises. And sometimes you just have to walk away! Leave the room, put some space between you and the trigger or just try to focus on something else!
There are many resources on the internet to get more information! Here is a good place to start!